How long will the bed that we made together
hold us there? Your stubbled cheeks grazed my skin
from evening to dawn, a cloud of scattered
particles now, islands of shaving foam
slowly spiraling down the drain, blood drops
stippling the water pink as I kiss
the back of your neck, our faces framed inside
a medicine cabinet mirror. The blade
of your hand carves a portal out of steam,
the two of us like boys behind frosted glass
who wave goodbye while a car shoves off
into winter. All that went unnoticed
till now — empty cups of coffee stacked up
in the sink, the neighborhood kids
up to their necks in mounds of autumn leaves.
How months on a kitchen calendar drop
like frozen flies, the flu season at its peak
followed by a train of magic-markered
xxx』s — nights we』d spend apart. Death must work
that way, a string of long distance calls
that only gets through to the sound of your voice
on our machine, my heart』s mute confession
screened out. How long before we turn away
from flowers altogether, your blind hand
reaching past our bedridden shoulders
to hit that digital alarm at delayed
intervals — till you shut it off completely.
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Timothy Liu
b. 1965
The son of Chinese immigrants, poet Timothy Liu was born in San Jose, California, and earned a BA at Brigham Young University and an MA at the University of Houston. He spent two years as a missionary in Hong Kong, though he no longer practices Mormonism. Liu counts as early mentors Welsh poet Leslie Norris, poet
Richard Howard, and writer Gordon Lish.
Paying attention to formal constraints such as syllabics, Liu』s poetry explores identity, violence, sexuality, and the power of witness. In interviews Liu has addressed the role of explicit sexual or violent imagery in his poetry, stating, 「Language is erotic, intended or not. Some of the poems […] toy with cultural taboos as well, and therefore are obscene, that is 『offstage.』 […] Many of my poems seek to stage linguistic tropes and situations that have been largely left out of poetic discourse, thus releasing textual energies that our culture seeks to suppress.」 Reviewing
Of Thee I Sing, Danielle Pafunda observed, 「On the page, Liu occupies paradoxical space, his tropes of identity rendered vehicles for the language, and the language complicating the vehicles on which it travels.」
Liu』s poetry collections include
Bending the Mind Around the Dream』s Blown Fuse (2009),
For Dust Thou Art (2005), Publishers Weekly Book of the Year
Of Thee I Sing (2004), and Poetry Society of America』s Norma Farber First Book Award winner
Vox Angelica (1992). Liu collaborated with artist Greg Drasler on
Polytheogamy (2009). He is the editor of
Word of Mouth: An Anthology of Gay American Poetry (2000).
A selection of his papers is held in the Berg Collection of the New York Public Library. He has taught at William Paterson University and Bennington College』s Graduate Writing Seminars, and currently lives in New York City.
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