(楊老師音樂筆記)
壞人變老就孤獨
加拿大壞小子歌星賈斯丁比伯,最近居然唱了一首愁腸百結的傷感歌曲《孤獨》,其旋律與歌詞道盡名利場上那種冷徹骨髓的「高處不勝寒」,那份「說與旁人渾不解」的孤獨感。
從童星一路走紅到現在,比伯這個名字已是家喻戶曉,也因為他的闖禍與緋聞不斷而臭名昭著。可是當他看鏡子中的自己,卻覺得是個陌生人:
Everybody knows my name now
But somethin' 'bout it still feels strange
Like lookin' in a mirror, tryna steady yourself
And seein' somebody else
And everything is not the same now
It feels like all our lives have changed
Maybe when I'm older, it'll all calm down
But it's killin' me now
少年得志名利雙收的比伯,擁有一切,卻找不人傾訴心事。他終於明白:這就是他要為自己付出的代價:
What if you had it all
But nobody to call?
Maybe then, you'd know me
'Cause I've had everything
But no one's listening
名人的代價,就是像住在玻璃屋裡,一舉一動被世人一覽無餘。而即使明明自己毛病不輕,這個世界毫不在乎,還會說那都是少年輕狂惹的禍:
Everybody knows my past now
Like my house was always made of glass
And maybe that's the price you pay
For the money and fame at an early age
And everybody saw me sick
And it felt like no one gave a shit
They criticized the things I did
As an idiot kid
「少年不識愁滋味」的比伯,而今終於閱盡人間冷暖,感受到的,是一股揮之不去的孤獨感:
And that's just f***in' lonely
I'm so lonely
Lonely
I'm so lonely
Lonely
比伯在演繹「lonely」這個詞的時候,用真假聲交替婉轉,營造出一種如泣如訴的悲情。聽到這裡,不由得對這位渾身紋身放蕩不羈的壞小子產生一絲好感來。看著已近而立之年的比伯,心裡想:
不一定是壞人變好,或許僅僅是因為變老!