女兵劉的3月4日---忍耐是福 03、04、09

「總要效法那些憑信心和忍耐承受應許的人。」
這句經文·出自，聖經新約，希伯來書第六章第十二節。

信心的英雄今天在榮耀中指示我們：凡他們所成功的，我們亦能。成功的秘訣不只是信心，也在乎忍耐。所以，不要讓我們疑惑，焦慮，沮喪，以至失去受主出乎愛的鍛煉的機會。

昨天夜裡，或說是今天凌晨，我在作自我反省。十分的痛，我百感交集，痛哭流涕，反爾覺得非常地釋放，很 healthy，用現今流行的說法。

其實，我是蠻佩服《秋菊打官司》中的秋菊的。

When Gong Li's character told the authority that all she wanted from her husband's ordeal is to " get recognised!"

That is exactly what has been going through my mind.

Yes, I　ｃｏｕｌｄ　ｕｓｅ　ｏｎｅ　ｏｆ　ｍｙ　Ａｒｍｙ　ｖａｌｕｅｓ，　Ｓｅｌｆｌｅｓｓ　ｓａｃｒｉｆｉｃｅ，　ｂｕｔ　Ｉjust cannot lie to myself that whatever happened at Fort Jackson, in Jan of 2007 didn't occur.

After the sleepless night, I came to this major decision of my life. From now on, I　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｓｔｒｏｎｇ　ａｎｄ　ｃｏｎｆｉｄｅｎｔ．　Ａｎｄ　Ｉnever give up. I will stand up for myself once and for all.

I　ｗｉｌｌ　ｆｉｇｈｔ　ａｌｌ　ｉｎｊｕｓｔｉｃｅ　ｔｈａｔ　Ｉ　ｓｅｅ．　Ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｒｅｓｐｅｃｔ　ａｎｄ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ，　ａｎｄ　ｂｅ　ｆｒｉｅｎｄ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ，　ｉｎｓｔｅａｄ　ｏｆ　ｒｕｎｎｉｎｇ　ａｗａｙ　ｔｏ　Ｃｈｉｎａ　ｏｒ　ｅｖｅｎ　ｔｏ　ｔｈｅ　Ａｒｍｙ．

Ｎｏ，　Ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｃａｌｍ，　ｆｏｃｕｓｉｎｇ　ｍｙ　ｐｒｅｃｉｏｕｓ　ｅｎｅｒｇｙ　ａｎｄ　ｃｏｎｃｅｎｔｒａｔｉｏｎ　ｏｎ　ｉｍｐｏｒｔａｎｔ　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ　ｏｎｌｙ．

Ｉwill be an exellent mother to my one and only son, Anthony. And Ｉwill show him love and respect in a brand new way.

And I　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｓｕｃｃｅｓｓｆｕｌ！　Ｔｏ　ｂｅａｒ　Ｇｏｄ＇ｓ　ｔｒｕｅ　ｗｉｔｎｅｓｓ　ｗｈｉｌｅ　Ｉlive every day of the rest of my life.

 

這些豪言壯語，好久沒說了。請你不要覺得我虛偽，我只是想平平靜靜地生活，少慾望，多為別人考慮，修補與兒子的親情，給他作榜樣，給他無限的愛。